My experiments with words...

Essence of Life

2011-02-14T15:19:00.003+09:00

Searching for the missing

Essence of life

I looked every where

Is there a meaning

In this emptiness

Why sun sets

Why the sea waves fall

Why stars shine

Only in dark

Why the scent of your smile

Floats away, every time

I try to hold on

In my cupped palms

I gather the grains of sand

Left by your foot prints

In my heart

I smell the sunsets

…and your shadow

About to drop

In the spray of salty breeze

All over my yearning heart

The ledge of sand still waits

Where you sat down to count

Countless stars

– Fencing the endless horizon

Of this dark night

All still there, waiting

Remembering and living your smile

There was so little space between us

Then

Now the ocean has filled the gap

As we sit across, in our desert spaces

Orion’s belt still shines bright

Every lonely night

With the star

You gave me as farewell gift

You know, I was there tonight too

Like every dark night

Looking for you

Essence of life

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ॐ नमः शिवाय

Om Namah Shivaya

Can I see you now

2010-10-03T23:02:00.002+09:00

Desire to see you now

Is so heavy in my heart

That I can almost sink it in tears

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Om Namah Shivaya

Deep inside her I sleep

2010-08-26T13:55:00.003+09:00

Deep inside her I sleep
_
The sound reaching out to me from the sea
Is not what I desire
Or even want to hear
But still it reaches out to me
Through the open window
Of the high rise building, where I am enclosed in
And trying to live and close
But still the Window remains
A window out to the sea
That I can not close.

Even if I try hard or desire harder
As
The window glass that I broke
The other night
In frenzy of the remains of my desires
Unbroken, unfulfilled.
In the stupor of alcohol induced passion
And call of the stormy night
The window remains just a window
Nothing more and a lot less
Glassless, desire less and view less
To the open world.

Still I didn't hear the cry
Or the sound of waves
Pounding on the beach, few hundred yards away
Still I let my heart break into pieces
On the breakwater
That walks out
Few hundred yards deeper into the deep sea
And I see
The waves breaking against it
A break out from the prisons of earth
Out to the sea
Try as hard as waves might
Could not stop breakwater from moving in depth
And deeper still

Then Why still
All the time the Sea calls me?
Is it free from stopping, bonding and holding
The Breakwater free from breaking me?
Does it want me to come
Merge in her depths
Just like the path that sinks in her
After few meters of walking along, with me.

Or is it just a sign - an omen
Of my solitude
All alone
Like the sea
Even though Rivers, clouds and the horizon
Sink into her depths and be within.

Why? Why?
She is not with me, now
When she was with me
Long lives ago
("Long time" if you will!)
And she is not coming back to sink
Into my depths of desires, needs
Or in my intense pleasure
Or, my darling,
My watery grave with me.
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ॐ नमः शिवाय
Om Namah Shivaya

Love, Lust and Desires to BE

2010-08-26T13:43:00.003+09:00

Love, Lust and Desires to BE
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There is a thin line
Between love and lust
Between sea and sky
Between me and you

Such a fine line
That I can see
Touch it from
Here
(Enclosed in the high rise monster
That mostly dot the sea )
I am reaching out to be.

From here, I hear
-Silence is whispering to the sea
Waves percolating through the window
Where darkness of my erotic thoughts
Seep in through the night's gateway
A window with three glass frames
Barred, framed and up-curtained
Unveiled and naked.
From here I see

From here I can reach out
And tear them apart
The love and the lust
The entangled Sea in the sky
And cleave out
A divide between
With my desire
To BE

Some time I want to be - BE
Some times Sea in all its thrashing about
With waves and tsunami's just want to BE too
Some times the sky
With its dark cloud and their silver linings
Just wanna BE

Some times all of us want to
Reach out
Separate love from lust
And desire just to BE
Just to be in love
Pure, undiluted, undefined
Just Love
LOVE
Love to be
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ॐ नमः शिवाय
Om Namah Shivaya

Burning Bridges...

2010-08-09T18:06:00.006+09:00

Burning Bridges

Sitting alone
Burning her bridges
Piece by rending piece
Even before my heart could smell
The acrid smoke of breaking
The bridge is down
Under the bridge

Heart tries hard to keep
The fire from going on hurting, flame by flame
Her face, turned away
In the flicker of the burning lights
Refuses the bits food that he feeds
His dying love, and dies at last.

Made of blood, as foolish as it sounds;
Memories drip, from my bleeding heart
And love cast her name, again and again
On the sands of time
Waves upon waves, sea in vain
Wipes the effort, again and again

Why do I write
Why do I write on the sands
Knowing it will be wiped out
In no time, but still I do
As I know she is oriented
Towards Sea - the sea of humanity and of love

His bridge still is not burned, while she has
Burned her bridges
Life times ago

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

Unconditional Love

2010-07-18T13:04:00.004+09:00

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I love you

Not because of you

But because of me

Not because of your beauty

But because I am beautiful

I love you

Not because you need my love

but because I need my loving you

I love you

Not because yesterday or day before yesterday

But from ages

From many life times

Your soul and mine

Loved not you or me

But each other's togetherness in the heart

Lived and died

On the banks of eternal river of various lives

On the clouds of moon lights

Among stars and its sunshine

Among the sea and its high tides

In each other's heart.

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Om Namah Shivaya

Alone on the beach

2010-06-16T21:18:00.003+09:00

She wanders

Walks

Move in and out of my thoughts

Like waves upon waves

That crash on the sandy beach

She weaves a cosmic dream

With her foot prints in my heart.

______________________

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

A Bridge Across Forever

2010-06-16T20:44:00.005+09:00

She walks alone on the beach

Tidal waves, stormy sea

Me and my dreams

________________

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Whispers

2010-06-10T16:45:00.005+09:00

The valley silently

Unfolded herself

As you walked across

To sit beside me

And smile

The birds talked to

Tall and silent deodar trees

In their melody

And you reach out to

Hold my hands

Smiling through the distant stars

She leaned and rested on my shoulders

As the breeze sighed

And she whispered

I missed you

And I turned around

To find you

Far, far away

But

I still kissed her

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Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Last night...

2010-06-09T20:09:00.002+09:00

The moments of our togetherness
Last night
Submerged in love
And it rained in the morning
I woke up alive and drenched

__________________
Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Give me a hug...?

2010-04-07T14:14:00.002+09:00

As the sun rushes into the night

The sea reaches out hold him

In depths of her love

_______________

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Feelings from Past ... or is it from future?

2010-03-18T16:18:00.006+09:00

Its interesting to note that some times, things come across you again when you need it the most and least expected... The following two verses I had sent to a friend long time back I think around 2002... yesterday they came back to me again..

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Small brush with feelings
Takes a long time
To fade
On the lips
Or on the memories of life
________________

When there is life so young
Fresh from God
There is a flow of feelings
That moves to from thoughts
To emotions
____________________
Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

How to save a drop of happiness from drying up....

2010-03-11T16:24:00.006+09:00

As time takes it toll
People drift apart
As life takes its turns
Spiraling away friends from our lives
As the present walks into unknown future
Given enough space

Belongingness too fades away into a memory

To save a drop of happiness from drying up

Drop it

In the togetherness

That was and that is and that will be

_________________________

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Earth Star

2010-03-08T05:28:00.003+09:00

A river flows

Sun melts over the rock

She brings in my arms - Earth and distant star

_______________________

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

What's wrong with you?

2010-03-04T08:52:00.003+09:00

Cut into pieces and thrown apart

By time and space

There are many things wrong with me, right now

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Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Cosmic Love....

2010-02-26T04:21:00.010+09:00

Sun

Melts in the sea

Can I hug you...?

_________________

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Why possess?

2010-02-23T08:19:00.003+09:00

When loving

Feels so close and within

Do you know how close?

___________________

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Krishna's love song

2010-02-18T19:06:00.006+09:00

The drums beat, hearts beat

A dance entangled together

Bunch of red roses watch over

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Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna

Virtual

On the other side of horizon...Sunrise waits

2010-02-15T18:36:00.010+09:00

Night too tired of bedtime stories

Lies down besides me to sleep

Will you wake me up...?

_______________________

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Did you see that...?

2010-02-10T12:03:00.006+09:00

Togetherness - so silent

That stars start whispering to sea

Did you see that ... ?

_____________________

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Stuck in the cycle of life...

2009-08-15T22:49:00.003+09:00

Anchored in Karma,

Chained to the past

Life tries to break free

From darkness that is lost

Among memories that were forgotten

Among things that were not done

Among friends that were not made

Among roads that were not ...taken

Among choices that were made

And choices that were not.

__________________

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Alone again... naturally...

2009-06-26T04:39:00.003+09:00

Hey, are you there?

Its nice, I value you ...

Hanging on to the past

But you know?

I got entangled in the bush

Again

But

Hey, don't you worry

I will come out of it, once again

May be with few scratches ...

But same, as new as ever

As I always was....

And ofcourse I will cross this Jungle

Once again... unscathed

So don't worry.

And Lifes magical moments

Lets you play with the fire again

And singe

Again and again

And let's you... Ask

Why?

Maybe

To let you know

That there is no way

If one leaves an empty space

That can not be filled

Drop by drop

Moment by moment

Something will....

Some one will....

May be on a different plane?

And some emotions gets stretched

Taut strings

Across the lonely guitar

Tighter

To play the life's note

One by one

Each string breaks

Raising a melodious song

To reverbrate in the future

Thrashing on some threshhold

May be there will not be any more notes left

To play any more

May be

The notes will play

Alone again

Naturally.

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Breaking Strands...

2009-05-30T03:41:00.003+09:00

How it feels
When each strands that held us together
Starts breaking.
One by one
With every twang, another strand looses
Its bonding with the rest

One by one
The one breaks away
From the memories
The touch
And the belongingness
Like some one plucking
Petal by petal
Loves me, Loves me not
While the flower
Dies a slow death.

Wish you were here
Holding unto my arms
A promise of loved future
and a dying breath
How it feels to lie down slowly
In the loneliness
Of timeless
Fading death.

Sands of times run out, grain by grain

From our clasped fingers in shaking hands.

It feels so lonely - The slowliness of dying breath.

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

Moved on...

2009-05-25T01:50:00.004+09:00

So the Sun changed position

But the bright shadow of Love
Still clings on to me
Long after the setting Sun

Yes, I agree
The light moved on
From Sun Rise to Sun Set
Bound by its own desires and duties to perform
Some times to witness the birth of a life
Some times
End of another

But Some times ....
There is nothing like having a desire
Attached to you
Like a Shadow
Not willing to cast you away
Tattoed to your soul
Like a bright sun spot
Willing to move on with your soul
Till the end of the life...
Willing to move on ... with you

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

The Roads That We Take...

2009-04-10T19:14:00.004+09:00

This one I wrote after watching a very nice movie "The reader" where Kate Winslet plays a Nazi guard to a prisoners camp... and her 20 years prisonment, where her summer affair finds again and she looks forward to her end in prison with some hope... finally. These verses are from the point of view of the young lover who finally let her go, when he meets her first at the court house and then again at her release day... and she committed suicide at the end of her prison term, when he comes to pick her up.

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I let her go
Where I could have changed
Changed her destiny
Can I live with it

I could not
And took the role Of "The reader" again
To let her live
And Outlive my shame
Of letting her go
And she did

How I let her go
To die alone
In her pain Again
She took
The memory of her
Out stretched hand
Unheld in my hands
As the kiss of death

How small things
Change and grow
In that void of cell
To burn "a desire"
To learn and communicate
To me, through my voice
Ringing in her head

How big part
I have become
Of her life
And
How I cleave it out of her heart
In the end

How she held on to
The last straw
Of my reaching out
Again
How things change
How people change
And
How big people like
Her go so quietly in pain
In vain
__________________

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

Life is wasted on the living

2009-01-11T19:38:00.004+09:00

Moment by moment
Life drips out
And empties the soul
Of living

Full and contented
Living is not meant to be
Each moment passes by
Bringing its own emptying-ness
Scouring another few bits of happiness
To dump it in the trash of memories
And experiences
To live on

While life is being wasted
On living
In and out of belongingness

( Note: The heading is a quote by the famous writer of "Hitch Hiker's Guide to Galaxy" by Douglas Adams that pormpted me to write this one. In fact to the think of it, he says in his book the secret of life is 42... hehehe. The image is of Beach field house in Chippenham in UK where I was staying last month in december and I loved the empty look of this beautiful bench there that was so inviting to share with some one.)

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

The Gods on your shoulder...

2008-11-03T04:07:00.005+09:00

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The edge of time
Carves
what one grows
But not
What one has to Sacrifice....
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Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Continue to hold you in my Heart

2008-04-22T21:12:00.002+09:00

Holding your thoughts in my heart
Emotions flutter like the butterflies
Moving from one feeling to another
I feel your surge in my soul

Like a glowing warmth
Like an enlightenment
Like the beating of heart
Your smile makes me smile

I move away from you
Begin to walk on the raging sea
Fenced by the lonely stars
Moon envelops the darkness of the night

You are looking so lovely
Going away
That I could not feel, how painful it would be
To continously hold you in my heart.

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

The moments in between Love...

2008-02-22T01:18:00.002+09:00

The moments between the blink of eyes
The moments between the thoughts
And memories
The moments between
The hug and warmth of care

Are the moments
When love says I am here.

Love me when I am around
Love me when I am not
Love me when I lost my self in your love
Love, love me

When i am not in love

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

Dark Rain

2008-01-15T18:27:00.000+09:00

Dark Rain

The overcast sky hung over

Opperessing my soul

I walked across raging sea

To reach out

And shake the rains free

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

The Passion Of Sea

2006-12-07T16:56:00.000+09:00

This one poem I wrote some years back and I found it now... I see that I was more expressive and passionate at that time....

The Passion Of Sea

The roughness etched on the waves
Like scratch of nails on my Face
the drops leave the foaming sea
like the sweat drops from my body
to mix in your passion
and rhythm of creation
your sighs and cries meet
the lashings of the waves
on the lying beach like me
And
then the Cloud Burst
and I am still wet

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

The drop of water...

2006-11-25T21:41:00.000+09:00

I lie on the stones
Dying
The eagles circle around in the cloudless sky
With stones in their claws
Ready to drop
On my soul
Crunching my death with the final blow
Within the cage of five senses
I wait for death

A traveler passes by
And I ask him
To stop me
From drying up
I have lost my love
My will to fight
The overhead circling death and harsh sun
And...
He asks me “how can he stop me from drying up"
In this harsh heat of hate and lost love
Even the cold earth is no longer cold
Baked up sand, and wilted love
Form the fabric of my deathbed

The stone leaves the eagles claw
Moves to meet me in the heart
I raise myself a little more
Trying to meet half way
The Hell of pain
To liberating soul
And it misses me altogether
And in the mist tears
And of churned up dust
A voice reverberates
“Take the drop of water to the sea of love
To keep it from drying up"

The love can only survive
In sea of love
In the arms of lover
In the heat of love
Love survives in the purity of love
In the hearts of soul
Who belongs to one

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

The unfolding of another story...

2006-11-20T00:58:00.000+09:00

This one I wrote in one of the nicest beach of Kerala, Kovalam some time back. While watching the sun go down, one of the terrace restaurant, I saw an old foreigner sitting across watching a young girl on another table full of joy and vivaciousness... here it Goes.

The unfolding of another story....

She sits across
With eyes moist with sun in her eyes
A fresh face
Old memories
A tug of war
between life's triumphs
And lost battles
How life exchanges moments
Silently between them
A young story
An old memories
The sun sets over
One shore
On the other side
Its a new sunrise.

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

The Fall Season..

2006-10-31T20:09:00.000+09:00

The fall season

The tree strechted to scour the sky

Entiwined within your arms

The love snowed warmth in my heart

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Soul Wash ... (Some of the poems that follow are from my rain time in South)

2006-10-24T19:41:00.000+09:00

The joy of the boy

Jumped out of the puddle

Cleansed my tarnished soul

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

The girls in the rain...

2006-10-24T19:35:00.000+09:00

The Neem tree swayed

Cleansed and happy

The two girls frolicked

In the Rains

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Rain rain Come Clean Again....

2006-10-24T19:16:00.000+09:00

The rain

Brings out desires

Of the wet drops

Slithering down the spine

Touching the crevices

Of desires and lust

Bringing out the worst

In the dirty shell

Bringing out the best

In the tarnished soul

Touch me with drops

Of your loveIn mouth full of saliva

Which desires

The shortest distance

Betwen my soul to yours

Lips to lips

While tongue of lust

Gropes in the desires

Of your soul

Rain Rain

Wash out the lust in me

And cleanse my soul

With desireless

Wetness

Between entwined legs

And writhing souls

Fighting for a space

In the chaos

That is mind

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

A Haiku...

2006-09-15T14:16:00.000+09:00

THE MIST

White shroud Covers
What leaves, leave behind
Naked
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Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

The lake and the waves...

2006-08-13T17:11:00.000+09:00

The water fought hard with the waves
Trying to hold its own reality
On the surface
Waves won

Deep inside
Lake withdrew deeper
Left the waves to play
With the air, earth, water
and Fire

Suddenly there was a splash
A rock solid thought
Plunged deeper
Calming with its force
The waves, the water, the earth
And the fire

Lake opened itself
Felt the rock sebmerged within
Unlocked the deepset desire
And merged with the consciouness
The space within the thought
Lake
Water
earth
Fire
and its own deepest desire

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

Underskin....

2006-08-10T23:56:00.000+09:00

I have seen serpents
Running over your skin
Playing in your hair locks
Bathing from the rivulets that
Run down from your head
And then some one told me
That its me
Now I find them leaving you
and running across my blood
Slithering in and out of my blood vessels
Touching my senses
In cold touch
I have them making me feel
Gripped in coils
While my mind writhes
In shudders
Of coiled tightness
Of my life
Day in and day out Love
I find you
Probing my senses
with your flickering tongue

Om Namah Shivaya Virtual

Another life Unfolds

2006-06-17T23:20:00.000+09:00

Fluttering leaves

Settles on the dust

tentatively

Waiting for the wind to unfold

and

Take her to the far corners

Of turbulent time

and leave

Her on the village temple

Footsteps

In wait for another life

To unfold

JAI DURGA JI
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Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Knock knock knocking on heavens door..

2006-06-10T22:07:00.000+09:00

He was there when I took my first steps
He was there when I fell down and cried
He was there when the only thing I did
Was to suffer and make him cry too
He was even there when
I got up to leave
Him all alone
He came to drop me off with a smile

Now, he is knocking on heavens door
And I am far away holding my breath
Waiting and watching him
To take his last breaths
Though ventilators have taken over
Within the watch full eyes of
My younger doctor brother
I fear the ring of my mobile
My brother gave him only
50-50 Chance
And promised to call me
When the other 50% chance
Turns into 100%

My thoughts my tentative breaths
Have now transformed into chanting of my soul
With each breath
His thought comes
And He smiles
Watching me holding my breath
While He waits upon His doors
Counting on someone knocking on
His doors

Now I smile

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

The Life...

2006-05-24T23:08:00.000+09:00

An angel told me yesterday
To live
One has to die first
And I did

Now is this life
Where my thoughts corrode
My inerself
My mind takes over
Senses
Balancing between two opposites
Finds no solace in peace
Lives in past
Looks upto future
But never stays
In The present

Is this life
Where all one does
Is to pay for
Past deeds
Karma they call
While one does not even know
How much balance one still has
To pay

How can I live my life
When
Whenever I ask the angels
They let me die
Another death.

Om Namah Shivaya

Virtual

Blinded in Your love

2006-05-17T20:28:00.000+09:00

The spasm of hopelessness
Gathers around me like solar dust
Phoenix like desperation
Rises from the emptiness
Of interstellar space
I keep Climbing up
Step by Step
In the universe
In search of the light of Darkness
In your Universal soul
Blinded in your love

If only You can come
As easily as your pain

Om Namah Shivaya Virtual

Life's gone by....

2006-05-08T15:19:00.000+09:00

A Life Gone By

I have this mannequin
Hanging in my office room
One arm and a good figure
No Blouse on top
Feel like something is missing
In her life too

Her feet hangs in the air
Like she has her ground
Removed underneath too
Why I dont see her face
Smiling
Does she has nightmares too

She does not even have a face
Then how can she has dreams
Let alone nightmares
But does one really need a head
For dreams to barge in
Un asked and uncalled for

Hold on, I can see her smile
Not on her shoulders
But in the space above her
Like an apparition looking at me
Calling me to come to my own senses

Have dreams not in her head
But of my own
Let it live in the contrasts of minds
Let the thoughts categorise it
As good as opposite to Bad

But She tells me not to play the game
Of the contrasts
But feel the evenness of depth
In the restless mind
Move in to observe inside
Unattached to life

Life Gone By...

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

A haiku for a friend on her 23rd B'day... happy belated Birthday..

2006-05-05T17:12:00.000+09:00

Lifes Touch

Sweet chocolate
Melts
Life seeped in 23 years

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

I am back....

2006-05-05T17:00:00.000+09:00

Hi all..

Whoever is following up on this blog. I was away due to certain set back in my life that left me broken and shattered but I am back. I feel that it was all a process of cleansing up that God has ordered for me in natures / Maya's garage like an overhaul or regular service of the vehicle that is this body. I am now coming to terms with the changed situation and picking up threads from where I have left off.

This cleansing has done one thing that I am now very clear of my lifes goal and what I am going to do....

I am back but I will be less online than before but I am here now...

Om Namah Shivaya
Virtual

A beautiful Poetry by Pablo Neruda....

2006-04-05T15:58:00.000+09:00

This one poem by Pablo Neruda I came across on the net which I liked so much that I could not hold myself from posting it here...

Sonnet XVII
I do not love you as if you were the salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

Pablo Neruda

The free fall...

2006-04-04T23:54:00.000+09:00

The hunters gathering around

The buffalo

On the walls of some primitive cave

Primitive but stark

So close to reality of

Now

That I merged

Blood

Trickled out

With each spear – finding its mark

And Dislodging

Each drop that fell

On me

From me

Sapping my strength

Loosing my space

On the ground

The circle drew closer

Closing in on me

Overhead the God’s Smiled

Along with circling Hawks

And

I went for a free fall.

Om Namah Shivaya

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Supper...

2006-04-04T23:50:00.000+09:00

Between bites

Her eyes find me

I reach out to remove a crumb

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Om Namah Shivaya
Sakha

She Sleeps...

2006-04-02T04:42:00.000+09:00

A haiku style poetry ( I really dont conform to the 17 Syllable rule of Haiku). I like writing this kind of poetry as it paints picture with words.
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She sleeps....

She throws her legs

Unwrapping

My dreams

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Om Namah Shivaya
Sakha

I feel far...

2006-03-30T19:20:00.000+09:00

These lines I liked from my earlier poem "Empty dreams.." a lot, so I thought of using it as an image seperately as in Haiku.

I FEEL FAR

Far away
The sea crashes
On empty beach

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Om Namah Shivaya
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Empty Dreams...

2006-03-29T19:16:00.000+09:00

The sound of Om
Echoes on and on
And
Spaces closes in
On me
I feel far
Far away
The sea crashes
On empty beach

The sound of a crash
Lives on and on
The door still bears
Some angry steps
Every day
A seat
Lives on emptily
Enclosed in walls
Empty like me

How to go about
Living on and on
Submerged
In a sleepless dream
How long can one
Hold on to
A touch
A Smile
And
A moment of bliss

Where is my
Time
In space
Or
Where is my
Space
In time
I am still
Waiting
On and on
On empty dreams

Om Namah Shivaya
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Between my mind and heart...

2006-03-18T20:54:00.000+09:00

The tremors that felt my hand
From her fingers
Travelled to the Heart
within my smile
Holding her silence within
My lips
I felt my love
Flutter in her Arms
"Wait - hold me before you leave"
Hung somewhere between my mind
And Heart

Om Namah Shivaya
Sakha

Come walk with me....

2006-03-17T22:34:00.000+09:00

The stars are coming closer

Over the sea
And I find you walking down the waves
Waving to me
How the stars have fenced the sea

Come sit next to me
I remove the space between
“Come walk with me
These moments”
So that they leave foot prints in me

No man has said this before
No one has
Fluttered your heart
No one has loved so much
Yes no had asked me before
How I love

What do I do
Sleep is playing tricks with me
I am dead now
Now I am dreaming
That you love
Now you are leaving

Throw a little dirt
Cover it with your laughs
I am lying awake
In my piece of space
Six feet deep in earth

Death is acceptable
But what do I do
Its not coming
Before that
Your pain happened
Om Namah Shivaya
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Genau...

2006-03-17T22:25:00.000+09:00

The sand slipped out of my hands
Bit by bit
Holding on to you
Feels like
A heart in closed fist
It’s paining
More to let it go…

Dreams came crashing down on me
On all sides
While silence prevailed
In the shatters
I grew weak
Bit by bit
By my Love for you

I woke up in the morning
Got ready to dress
Put on the shoes that you loved
Got out the Kurta you liked
Hang around the eating place
That holds your memories
Bit by bit

And I lost my appetite
I walked in the office and I forgot to pray
Lord Ganesha on the door
But I did walk into your room
To say hi
But you have left empty spaces
Bit by bit
And I lost my self

Genau

Om Namah Shivaya

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Wake Up My Love....

2006-03-17T22:21:00.000+09:00

The whole pain
Precipitated from the night sky
In the morning rain
Chiding me for love exposed
Now in the drenched soil
Uncared and very small

How I love
A question that needs answer
Only to those who don't
And it etches like
A newly acquired scab
I just don’t know
How

What I know
Is this feeling in me
Growing by each space
You put in between
Brings me down on my knees
Feeling the greatness that was
To smallness that is
Now

Meanwhile the Rain
Lashes on my car windows
Love lashes within
Whipping up a storm
And I call you up
To say how lovely is the weather
Around
Wake Up

Om Namah Shivaya

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Some Shattered Dreams...

2006-03-17T22:13:00.000+09:00

The touch that lingers
Like phantoms in my mind
The feelings
That sieves out of my passionate warmth
Hold me closer to you
Than your body scent
That lives within my thoughts

The more passionate - my thoughts
Coils my mind all around
The more pain,
Breaks out in my heart
Like the grip of your slender legs
Squeezes out pleasure
Till
My last drops

How can I hold you more firmly?
In my thoughts
When your passions
Flutter with winds
A storm that comes along,
Leaving behind
Some shattered dreams.

Om Namah Shivaya

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She Skipped....

2006-03-17T22:05:00.000+09:00

I find her
Oriented to the Sea
Like a magnet drawn to it
Finding her moment of solitude
In the expanse of blue depth
Precipated from the sky

She left my side
The moment the sea unfolded before her eyes
Skipping like a small child
That she still is
To reach out to her soul
Merged within the waves
Like her lover call

Stopped before the sea engulfed her
Emotions
Feelings
and the sheer vastness of her
Loneliness
She finds in her lover
The same depth and expanse
Of emptiness
That she finds within

And I watched from a distance
Her framed outlines in the evening sky
and within the depths of her bond
Unattached
Still reaching out

Om Namah Shivay
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